It is winter and my hands are cold.
I am sad and tired.
I miss my Mother more than I could ever have imagined and I am fighting off a bout of self pity.
I don’t ask the question
Who is going to comfort me
Because I know the answer.
I am tired
Tired of the cold.
Tired of never being asked how I am
Tired of people.
Tired of shallowness.
I am tired of being nice and tired of being polite
I think I should just go out and get smashed and run amok
And I would,
Except I don’t want the hangover and the sore head and the blackness of spirit that comes from all that negative energy.
But
At the end of the day I am truly an optimist,
And even in my bleakest moments I can go outside and see something that lifts my spirit.
A tiny abandoned nest in the raspberry canes made me smile.
The thought that small birds had been nesting so close to the house makes me inordinately happy.
Some days it is the smallest things that keep me going.
We have been doing Sunday Selections for 25 weeks now. Some Sundays I really cant be bothered and just whack up any old photo that I find in my archives.
Other Sundays, like today, I become seduced by the infinite possibilities of light and line and light and shade and find myself losing time as I compare edits, and I happily wander off into my otherworld, of daydreams and shadows.
Thank you for joining in with Sunday Selections, because if it wasn’t for your participation I know that I would have very quickly become bored with this photo meme and it would have just faded away.
The Blurb.
I take a lot of photos and most of them are just sitting around in folders on my desktop not doing anything. I thought that a dedicated post once a week would be a good way to share some of these photos that otherwise wouldn’t be seen by anyone other than me.
I am also remarkably absent minded and I put photos into folders and think that I will publish them later on and then then I never do.
So I have started a photo meme that anyone can join in and play as well. The rules are so simple as to be virtually non existent.
Just add your name and URL to the Mr Linky.
Publish your photos on your blog using the “Sunday Selections” title.
Link back here to me.
Easy Peasy.
Here are my photos for this week.
It is the smallest moments in my life that give me the greatest joy.
Splitting wood is meditative work, the physical act of chopping the wood into bits is satisfying and time up at the woodpile is always time well spent.
There is always something to distract me once I am outside and time slows down and becomes fluid, as the birds hop about the woodpile looking for their breakfast.
Dusky Robins and Grey Shrike Thrushes have learned that we mean food and it only takes three or four loud thwocks of the axe biting into the wood, to alert the birds to the fact that an easy meal is up for grabs.
Within minutes I have an audience, perched on the fence and on the handles of the wheelbarrow, all waiting for the insects I will disturb.
The Dusky Robins are the bravest and one little bird has become so fearless that yesterday morning I had to gently shoo her off the log I was trying to split.
I have filmed the Robins and once time permits I will pop up a short little video.
The Blurb.
I take a lot of photos and most of them are just sitting around in folders on my desktop not doing anything. I thought that a dedicated post once a week would be a good way to share some of these photos that otherwise wouldn’t be seen by anyone other than me.
I am also remarkably absent minded and I put photos into folders and think that I will publish them later on and then then I never do.
So I have started a photo meme that anyone can join in and play as well. The rules are so simple as to be virtually non existent.
Just add your name and URL to the Mr Linky.
Publish your photos on your blog using the “Sunday Selections” title.
Link back here to me.
Easy Peasy.
Here are my photos for this week.
I went back through my media library and found these images that I had published here on the blog in the summer of 2009. Look at the blue of the sky in that first photo.
Or trying to at least.
I am drawn to photos like this.
And paintings like this
A page from a sketchbook
Cups like these
A form like this
I enjoy taking photos like these next two
As much as I enjoy taking photos like these two
I make work like this
And I want to make work like this
But I am very happy with work like this.
and this
