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And so we are in a holding pattern.

Today I feel much better. Thank you. Thank you for taking my fear and my despair and sharing it amongst yourselves.

Yesterday in the studio, as I glazed all the cups and all of the bowls, I listened to Nick Cave and REM, The Mess Hall and Jen Cloher and I cried.

I cried as I poured and I sieved, I cried as prepared my work for the final firing and as I cried, Harry the dog pressed himself against me and licked the salty tears from my face. I hugged my dog close until the hairs that he constantly sheds, went up my nose and into the glaze and I smiled at the mess we both made.

Over the past three years I have cried a lot of tears into Harry’s furry neck and all he asks in return is that I throw a ball for him and turn a blind eye when he steals the cats food. He is a good dog.

We are in a holding pattern. It will be weeks before some of  Evelyn’s test results are back and so begins the slow process of trying various medications that are known to suppress seizures.

As for Evelyn’s blindness, well, I am trying very hard not to think about the reasons for that at the moment.

Thank you for your support. I am so very very grateful that you are here with me.

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  • Dorothy @ Singular Insanity September 19, 2012, 9:36 am

    Poor little bubs…. What a not great start to life…. Constantly thinking of you…

  • Pixie September 19, 2012, 10:14 am

    Holding your hand.

    Much love


  • Tracey September 19, 2012, 11:35 am

    Such a sweet, innocent little face. My heart is breaking for you all xx

  • Elephant's Child September 19, 2012, 1:48 pm

    I am glad that you were able to cry and cry and cry. Sometimes it is necessary, and a furry neck is the best place to do it. No questions, no judgement.
    In the meantime I am still sending so many good wishes to you all. Hurting for you, hurting with you.

  • Kakka September 19, 2012, 2:24 pm

    Some time the most unimaginable things happen to good people, I am so sorry that this is that time for you and Veronica and all the family. My mind is still reeling from reading all that has been happening, my heart his breaking for you and with you and there are tears being shed here on your behalf. Hugs to you all, and prayers for a speedy answer to all the questions. xxx

  • river September 19, 2012, 3:19 pm

    I’m so sad that this is happening to such a sweet little girl.
    I hope reasons and solutions come quickly.
    I’m hoping the blindness is a temporary result of the seizures.

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  • Mrs Catch September 19, 2012, 10:42 pm

    Kim, I am so sorry you , your family and especially Evelyn are going through this. Hoping there’s some way forward for you all soon. Sending hugs and prayers. Wish I could do more…

  • Happy Elf Mom September 20, 2012, 1:26 am

    I don’t lick your tears or shed on your floor, but I hope to be a friend who is here for you-all anyway. That you are blogging is a very healthy thing and encourages me greatly. I hope Veronica is doing ok as well (considering things) especially too, man does she have a lot on her plate. 🙁

  • Sharon @ Funken Wagnel September 20, 2012, 10:14 pm

    Dogs are the best listeners ever, yeah? You just keep crying into Harry’s neck as long as you need to. Nothing like some Nick Cave to help let it all go. Such a cruel wait you’re all being put through, but let’s just keep hoping for some good news at the end of it.