On Sunday after a fabulous day out making clay creatures up at Oatlands, The Spouse told me that he had been coughing up blood.
For a MONTH.
We received the initial all clear last night after our GP told us The Spouse’s lung Xrays did not show any obvious signs of cancer. Today, The Spouse will have a CT scan to look for nodules (pre-cancerous growths) but our GP is treating the CT scan as a routine follow up and so I am not stressing about it as much as I was stressing about the Xrays.
I have all these words internet, so many words for my fear and my relief but as soon as I try and grab them they wriggle away and I find myself staring out the windows daydreaming.
The Spouses health is fragile but at least it isn’t lung cancer, I really do not think I could go through that again. David’s mental health is fragile but at least he is alive and the great weight of fear that was crushing me, has lifted.
I am about to go for a walk in the rain as I missed my walk yesterday.
Here is a photo from Tuesday’s walk of doom. The blue of the sky is pretty and the swirl of the clouds behind the tree were following the same lines as the dead branches. A tracery of death and vapour.
Though, sober runkeeper says I walk much much slower than drunk runkeeper.
Sober runkeeper is NO FUN AT ALL.
Today I share a photo of the flowers of a Dolly Bush Cassinia acueleata. This is an understorey plant that is native to my area. The bark is similar to tea tree and the old timers used to call this shrub, “Kero Bush” because it burns very hotly and will catch alight even when it is green. The butterflies and other insects like it and it is very pretty in an understated way.
1.19 Kilometres. Time 27.25. Avg Min/Km 23.08. Yay Me.
I did not go for a walk this morning as I think eleventy million trips from the studio to the car, packing up my gear for an artistic adventure is more than enough exercise for one day.
Today I am the Artist in Residence at the Oatlands School and Community Garden Open Day.
I am looking forward to this enormously and not just because I get to play in the mud with strangers.
You should come along if you are out and about in the Midlands and make a clay monster with me.
These are examples of some of the creatures that a group of grade 4-6 children made with me a few weeks ago. I think they are fabulous and just perfect for a little nook in the garden.
I will be in the community garden from 10am- 2pm. Today.
Apparently the whole town of Oatlands is having a giant garage sale as well. It will be fun.
Just Follow the Scarecrows. I will be in one of the sheds around the back.
The alarm blared white noise at me at six am this morning and I did not want to get out of bed at all.
So I didn’t.
One of the perks of being an adult is that I get to make my own rules and set my own get out of bed time.
After a slow morning, faffing about on the internet I went for a walk at about 11 am.
Runkeeper is being overly optimistic and and told me that I broke all manner of personal records. Yay for me breaking imaginary records set by a dicky app on my phone.
I titled this photo, “Go home Runkeeper You Are Drunk!”
As drunk runkeeper said I traipsed all over the countryside following that erratic red line.
My actual walk is shown by the sober black dots I added in photoshop.
The shadows were nice on the way home. I walked for about 30 minutes and covered about a kilometre.
Wasn’t actually a walk of doom after all.
I have runkeeper installed on my phone and the automated voice gives me updates every five minutes as well as every .05 of a kilometre. I find the updates are quite encouraging and I know from the last time I walked regularly, the app helped me to keep on going just that little bit further. I am enormously competetive at some things and I do like to win, especially against myself.
As this was only a short walk I didn’t bother the robots inside my phone too much.
I know I said that I was only going to take three photos and then only publish one. That proved just too hard as there are far too many things to see on a walk. I took eight photos which is enormously restrained of me and I am going to share three of them today.
At the corner I turned back to look down the hill and saw that Tilly the cat was tagging along behind me.
And then there was also Harry, only looking slightly exasperated that he had to wait for me.
I walked to the crest of the hill before I turned back and headed home, with these two leading the way.
My final stats were Distance: .99 km. Time: 22 minutes at an average of 22.25 minutes per kilometre.