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I keep on forgetting what day it is.

I know that today is Tuesday. The funeral is today. It is also David’s birthday today. But since Mum died last week, my brain has seriously gone on holiday and I find myself regularly asking, “What day is it today?”

Organising a funeral is horrible. Mum and I had talked about her funeral, we had even gone to a funeral home together where I listened, as Mum talked about the music she wanted, the flowers that she liked and all the millions of small details.

We met with the celebrant(?) yesterday and I was under the impression that he would ask us questions about Mum and then he would write the Eulogy from the notes we had given him. Apparently not *sigh*

Luckily Mum’s favourite little Japanese tea rooms were close by. So my brother and his son Hayden along with Vonnie and myself brainstormed over lunch. My brother was left with the task of typing it up into a coherent Eulogy, which he would email to me, Vonnie and I would add any bits we thought of, email it back to Mick and he would email it to the celebrant.

AAAAAAARRRGHHHHHHH!!!!!!

This is really, really hard.

Today is also David’s 15th birthday. We are burying his Grandmother on his birthday. Oh shit. What the fuck was I thinking? Dont answer that ok.

I have tried really hard to make this last week as normal for Dave as possible but of course there is nothing really that I can do to distract him from his heart-ache, except hold him and try not to yell at him when he slams my doors.

I will just have to trust that everything will be all right for my son eventually.

Think of us today at three o’clock.

Mum.

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  • Marylin June 30, 2009, 8:01 am

    Oh sweetheart, I have been thinking of you all lots. Will have you in my dreams as I’m headed off to bed now. ((hugs))

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  • Karen (miscmum) June 30, 2009, 9:24 am

    I will be thinking of you and V and David. This is all horribly familiar to me 🙁 May she rest in peace.

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  • james r. June 30, 2009, 11:31 am

    My thoughts are with you all.

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  • Ree June 30, 2009, 12:01 pm

    I don’t know what time it is there (9:01 pm here in Chicago), but I’m thinking of you all.

    XXXXXOOOOOO

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  • Joyce-Anne June 30, 2009, 12:39 pm

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, Veronica and David today and in the coming weeks. ((Hugs))

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  • Jayne June 30, 2009, 12:48 pm

    (((hugs)))
    Thinking of you all this week and at 3pm today.

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  • Mrs. C June 30, 2009, 1:12 pm

    Lovely pic of your mum. It’s 10ish here. Will probably be asleep 3 p.m. so saying prayers now.

    And I wouldn’t worry about the birthday/burial on the same day. You are burying her body. Her spirit has already gone to be with the Lord Jesus Christ. She will be raised bodily in the last day when the trumpet sounds.

    Yes. I believe Jesus will come back for us all. And I do hope that your tears mingle with laughter today as you celebrate your Mum’s life AND David’s birthday.

    *waah! Now I’m crying*

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  • Ali June 30, 2009, 1:53 pm

    I will be thinking of you all.
    x

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  • Tanya June 30, 2009, 3:45 pm

    I just looked at the time and its nearly 4, so you guys are there right now. I hope it is a beautiful tribute to your mum and that it helps you all find some closure. xxx

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  • Xbox4NappyRash June 30, 2009, 4:13 pm

    Thinking of you guys today.

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  • river June 30, 2009, 5:27 pm

    I thought of you all most of the day. Hugs and tissues. Love from Adelaide.

  • Sharon June 30, 2009, 7:17 pm

    Hoping the all the good memories gave you some joy on what has to be a very hard day.

    xox

  • Bendy Girl June 30, 2009, 7:25 pm

    I’m not sure about the time difference, but I’ll be keeping you all in my thoughts today. Lots of love, BG x x x

  • tiff June 30, 2009, 7:38 pm

    Thinking of you Kimmy.
    Hoping today was as good as an awful day could be and that your boy will be okay too.

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  • Kelley @ Magnetoboldtoo June 30, 2009, 9:07 pm

    Love you babe.

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  • witchypoo July 1, 2009, 6:22 am

    That is a glorious picture of your mum. I know how tough it is to bury a parent, and you are all in my thoughts and heart.

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  • Barbara July 1, 2009, 6:26 am

    You’ve been in my thoughts all day.

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  • magpie July 1, 2009, 12:49 pm

    I’m sorry about your mother. Mine died a couple of months ago, and oddly enough, I just posted about lung cancer today. So stumbling here was eerie, but somehow just right.

    Stay well and take care of yourself.

  • Hyphen Mama July 2, 2009, 5:28 am

    I don’t have words, but I wanted you to know I’m reading and not ignoring.

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  • Tracey July 2, 2009, 9:05 pm

    Oh, Kimmy. I’m so sorry. I’ve been hiding under a rock for the past few weeks, not reading anyone’s blogs. I had no idea your mum had succumbed to that bastard disease. I’m mentally swearing at the world for all of you, it’s not fair, and the pain you are all feeling too horrible to imagine.
    Hugs, friend.

  • Taz July 3, 2009, 8:09 am

    thinking of you all..

    here is hoping Dave had an ok day.